It will get better....right?

Well...I don't have a lot to say. Just kinda down right now. I don't even know why I'm on here...

My husband will be home today!

TITAN (Jannie this is for you!) Sorry it took so long lol!

Been a while...

Wow. The time has gone...well. Not a lot to tell. My kids and I went to see Alvin and the Chipmunks today(really cute!) Austin is sick right now. He didn't eat any breakfast, not unusual for him, sometimes he wants it, sometimes he's just not in the mood. So I didn't think anything of it. But when we were at Wendys today for lunch he didn't want his food. Normally it's b/c he wants his toy first, which I'm trying to break that habit b/c then he wont eat. Anyways, it took everything I could think of to get him to take some bites but he did. After we got home, he said he wanted some strawberries so I thought he must be hungry enough now. So I gave him some, he still didn't act like he felt sick. But later on he started crying and stuff so yep he's sick. The stomach virus is going around and I think he has it. He threw up once but so far no more so maybe that's over with.

Aside from that, things are good. Like my new layout? I found a website that has blogger layouts, cool huh? I've tried and tried w/several other ones but they never did work. This was super easy. If anyone wants to know just comment me or something and I'll be happy to share!! Ok well I need to get off of here. I hardly ate my supper b/c I was too busy watching Austin so I'm gonna go grab something. Talk later!

more drama

well I did it. I let my mama know how I felt. She got pissed off and cried...I don't know why. The relationship that we have is not healthy really. She wants to be soo close to the point that it gets to be too much. She shot me an email stating that she didn't want to be a burden and if I wanted her in my life then I'd have to call her. It's unreal honestly. She says that EVERY SINGLE time I state my opinion.

But I talked to my dad and feel much better. He said he was proud of me and to just give her a couple weeks, that she'll get over it. She'll have to. I know all of this makes me sound like a horrible daughter, but I'm not. I have given into her time after time, mostly stating that everything I bring up is all my fault...so this time I finally put it down like it is. I have a feeling she'll use all of this as an excuse to not see the kids, and she'll make it my fault. Oh well...like I said she'll get over it.

I'm SO excited about Saturday!!! Goin to see my DAD!!WOOHOO! My Dad even said "as much as I want to see y'all, to save you and your moms relationship you can not see me and go visit her"....I told him nooooo it's something she'll have to deal with. So I'm really glad he was supportive, it helps so much!

Lil Upset

My mama, geez I can't believe the nerve of her!!! Ok I see her all the time, I don't actually go to her house, b/c my week's are busy, Austin has therapy and by the time I'm done, I don't have time to go visit her b/c she lives an hour away from there. She meets me a lot at therapy, to save time and we can visit. Well, last Sun she mentioned us doing something this Sat....it wasn't etched in stone yet. So I called my Dad Tuesday and asked him what he was doing Saturday and he said he was trying to get off, so I told him we'd come up to his house and visit him. I haven't been there since LAST Christmas. Anyhow I told my mom that he 'invited' us b/c I didn't wanna hurt her feelings, well I knew I had by the tone of her voice...so we get off the phone and she calls back 5 min later and said she's not mad, but she's upset...what??!!! I see her ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL the time!!! THEN she gets on this bit about how we are coming to the same town to see dad, and we never go to her house............ok she doesn't have a child that has therapy....and ya know when her and I go do something after, I'm never home in time for Ashlyn to get off the bus...I always have to call family to come up here and meet her...I don't like doing that. THen the weekends Travis is home, soooo what is her problem?? She just is jealous and is not wanting to understand anything. Like I said in my opinion it shouldn't matter whose house your at, what matters is you see each other, right? I mean I don't see my Dad much. He's busy all the time, and since Travis is gonna be gone this weekend I thought why don't I go see him...well soooo to make her feel better, I said after I see Dad Saturday, I'll go home and come back up Sunday to see you...she knew I was doing it out of pity, and I hope that she felt bad about it!!! B/c There was NO sense in her acting that way............first time I've seen my dad since July and she wants to get "upset", well let her I say!!!! GRRR I'm SOOOO mad. And when I go see her Sunday I have somethings to say to her............this is old but has been weighing on me for a long time. Ya know normally you have a baby shower esp your first pregnancy??? I didnt. U know what happened? They gave my MOTHER a GRANDMOTHER shower!!! WHY???? She had a babyshower when she was pregnant, why in the HELL did she need a GRANDMOTHER shower???? She covered it up and said they just all got together and brought the gifts to her and then she brought them to me, but I knew better, the weekend before it happened Travis was in my hometown and ran into one of the ladies and she spilled the beans to him. I'm sorry that has just stuck w/me to this day. Makes me feel hurt when I think about it....anyhow I gots somethings to say to her, and she needs to brace herself b/c some of these things she needs to hear!

I'm so happy

We just got back from the Fall Festival at church. The kids had a blast and Austin got his basket FULL of candy, cars, and all sorts of stuff! While there I ran into Travis' best friend, his wife and 16 mo. old. Last time I saw Noel was while she was pregnant...I feel really bad that I haven't seen her or her son Jude esp when he was a newborn...and we live right across town. I know, that makes me feel rotten! But I saw them tonight and it was great, we hung out together and our kids had a blast! She invited us to come over sometime b/c she's a sahm and babysits some other kids, and Austin's more of Jude's age...well not really but he's a tough boy, and they got along great tonight, so who knows? I got her number, I WILL take her up on that! I just feel great! Maybe I have a new friend? God aren't I sad?? Well I'm not though, I mean hey at least it happened, and I suppose if its meant to be it's meant to be....

other than that I am MAJORLY needing a foot massage/soak...a pedicure! YES! Like a stupid ass I wore my high boots and my feet HURT........plus I tripped while Austin was in my arms but the wall broke my fall..lol, my stupid sisterinlaw didn't even ask me if I was ok, she doesn't EVER talk to me or my kids....I just don't like her ONE bit! ANYways, my night was really good!