13 days later and here I am

Well...I guess my baby wanting days are here again. I wanna laugh and cry at the same time. Such a strong bond w/Austin, but he is getting bigger and growing more into a boy now, he's not such a baby anymore :( So which brings me to this. Here lately all I've done is think about it, dream about it. I've even joked w/it to Travis these last few weeks. He did say tonight (after I brought it up again lol) that when Austin 5 or so we can. YAY! I mean honestly it's not that long! One more year and he'll be in preschool, then Kindergarten. Sad, but true. He's growing up. I wish I could have froze time when he was 1. I say 1 b/c he was sooooo sweet then, now he's a rotten egg all the time, still my sweet boy most of the time, but rotten lol!

Which brings me to this. I'm at my "ideal" weight which is 133. I won't budge to get past that, I'm happy w/that. Odd number but nevertheless I'm happy w/it. So onto this...even though my weight is fine, I have LOTS of toning I need to do. So a cardio/toning ritual MUST be established. So when I do get pregnant, my body will be in shape. I'm soooo determined to do this! What helps more than anything is my husband. I think, in fact I know that when we got married I was still a little girl in so many ways...I mean 17 yrs old. Wow! He must've foreseen into the future that one day I'd mature into a woman. B/C even though I've always loved him, I'm more in love w/him right now than I've ever been. We're so close now, it's amazing, and wonderful. I guess I grew up. It's like one day BAM! It just happened. He's said things in the past week or two that he's NEVER said to me before. Like him sweetly stating a question but more of a statement that "our hearts go together, ya think?", I mean Travis doesn't say things like that!! NEVER! And I honestly say now that I'm grown up. I have matured into a wonderful wife. Well I wouldn't say wonderful, but more so than I was. Anyways, soooo much rambling. But he motivates me so much. I feel so closer to him now than ever and that makes me want to look good, be a fit mama.

Ok ok, so anyways thats a lot and I wanna get back in bed w/him and snuggle. He went to be early, he's sooo tired. He's been doing some on the side work w/a friend doing ac's/heat units while he's off from his "official" work so he's give out. I had time to read, then this was on my mind. Now I'm off to enjoy a quiet peaceful night w/my husband.